Takes Me Awhile


Well, it's January 26th, and this is my first blog post of the new year.

Myself and most of the people in my family try to be very self-aware. We were taught to be hyper-aware of people around us, and the space we take up in the world and the energy we bring to a room. Subconsciously, I think part of what comes with that is thinking that if we're honest about "the way we are", it gives us sort of a pardon. People can say, "Oh well, at least she's aware of it." Whether that's true or not, we operate as if it is.
So I guess I'm asking for a little bit of a pardon. Things take me awhile. I'm working on it. But part of working for myself means having a fair amount (huge amount) of self-discipline. And it's a constant battle. 
After a weekend away, I take Monday (and then maybe Tuesday) to "re-charge". It's a huge luxury that I'm able to do this in my life, but there's also something to be said for having to get up and be somewhere on Monday morning, as unpleasant as it may feel in the moment. 
After the new year I felt inspired to start fresh, but also unmotivated to do so, because I didn't know what that looked like. So I took some time, as I usually do.


I sort of missed the window for the "new year new me" post. I won't even re-cap my highlights of 2016. I didn't hate 2016 like a lot of people did, I just feel sort of neutral about it. Either way, there's room for improvement. I want to be excited about 2017.

The last couple years I've been a pretty big downer about new year's resolutions. I didn't want to buy into the idea of the new year being when we start something. I believe you can start fresh and set new goals any day of the year. But this year, I'm taking the opportunity to have a clean slate. There's nothing wrong with taking opportunities that are in front of you. It's still me, but it is a new year and I will treat it as such.

Fur coat: vintage // Turtleneck Bodysuit // Studded Boots // Belt

Photos by Alyssa Wilcox